Again.

Sometimes, mostly, almost always

 I am selfish

Cruel and uncaring.

A monstrosity, wallowing

In my sin

And self-satisfaction.

Secretly disgusted with myself

But still hiding

From You, the One Way of Escape

From this sinful mess that is my flesh

Again.

Please do pursue

This wayward heart,

And bring me, draw me

Carry me back

To Your always

Undeserved love

And amazing grace

Sweet, everlasting mercy

Again.

 

Show me my sins, big and ugly

Like spit in Your holy face.
 

Break me, bring me

To my knees, helpless to please

Unable to excuse myself.

Prostrate in remorse

And repentance

Again.

Forgive and cleanse me

Of this shame!

Wipe away my tears

Show me Your wounds

Your righteousness

And then,

Remind me of all you've done

For a wretch called "Lyn"

Again.

 

-L.R. Fitzwilliam